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Today suddenly have a bad feeling after brought my boss’s players to play basketball. Very down..hope to end up my basketball life now. I could’t achieve what I want, couldn’t play what I wish, could’t able to win as I want…totally out of control. Don’t know since when…I have started to accept this fact.. Where have my spirit gone? Or…I have the spirit,but I couldn’t able to satisty my lust of winning..

Since I lost my partner and my real team-mates..everything was going bad. I lost my performance badly…speed, stamina, skill, toughness, rebound power, jump power, shooting, co-operation,reaction, passing and even dribble skill…etc. Things went worse when I injured my leg,my knee and back… reputation lost,legend gone!

Maybe I should consider my own body condition…stop playing and let my knee,leg and back fully recover. Or..I should change to play other sports? play badminton, ping-pong, football or only jogging? I still feel that I am young,shouldn’t stop it so soon. But my performance had made me disappointed. If continue playing,will expose to more injuries in the future..

I have started to tired..internally and externally. Internal is my heart,lost of spirit..lost of my confident and bravery. External is my injuries, stop me from performing.. Choice have to be chosen..stop playing now or Continue till can’t able to play?

I think….my choice would be….

Change to another field of sport!

This is the best solution for me. I can keep good healthy body without injure myself anymore.. and won’t worry that I will be fatter,heavier and end up like old uncle…

Hope this is a right decision for myself.

Goodbye, my lovest Basketball !!!

Age getting older, I have started to work. Basketball is my second life. I really don’t wish to give it up.. I had a great time after 16 years old..competed with team from various schools in Penang, with my best teammates Kheng, Yao Hong, Vincent, Charles and Yi..

After come JB, my  first tornament in JB was Skudai cup.. Gark,Ozi,Miao,Huan,Keat,Khng,Bernard,XiQiang..we defeated Skudai team. Although we didn’t take the champion,but I still proud of my teammates,they really did their best..we owned victory from a team which had a few stage players. Our lose was caused by my arrogant team-mates.

I thought I won’t be playing for any team again after 18 years old. I consider a adult. Adult means that I have no chance to take part in a lot of tornaments. I met a turning point when a few basketball friends asked me to join their team. I considered for 2 years, I got my permittion from my couch,Frankie,and I joined their team named ‘ETL’.

It really not a good timing. I had knee and back injuries that time. But I really hoped to play..that was the first adult open tornament I had in JB. We lost due to wrong culculation of points. We were disqualified after a wining. I didn’t mind..because we had tried our best. Even though lack of co-operation amoung team-mates, but we fight till last minute,full of strangth and spirit among few of my good team mates..Mou,Qing,KangLing,SongWei…etc.

In the following years, we formed a new team, named ‘COURAGE’. Does it sound Powerful? I got knowing my new team-mates,they were strong and powerful basketball players. I really feel that they were good..Macus,Kent,Jackie. Felt happy and excited to had a strong team-mates like them. We had a new couch, he was a famous couch in JB. We started to train under his couching. Maybe I wasn’t the player that he really needed. Because I was not a great center,i am a Power Forward with speed react. I tried to change my style of playing,to make myself stronger. A good player has to be a good listener and learner. Good player needs to obey his couch to own the victory and glory.

Courage had started its journey,first year of COURAGE. We were able to enter second round but due to bad team-work and attitude problem,we losed out in second round. I hoped my team-mates had learned from there in the first year of COURAGE team. We were carry on our training after the lost of the first year. Courage team never had a good training spirit due to most of the players were working. We were not playing ball together from time to time due to a lot of "reasons",so that our team-work never been impoving.

We played a lot of invitation matches and friendly matches. But we encounter the same problems,lack of team-work, lack of trustworthy spirit among team-mates and problems between team-mates and couch.

The second year of COURAGE. It was a surprise due to JB open tornament was held earlier in January. Few of my team-mates decided to quit after this tornament. Why they would have this decision? You may guessed or asked them yourself. To stronger our formation, we added few strong players. With this formation, I think it was not hard for us to enter Group A, quater final of JB. We won perfectly in beginning group match and we needed to win another match to enter Group A.

That was a excited day for me. I could enter group A with all my strong team-mates after the match. Full of excitement.. but this only maintained until the time we warmed up our body,got ready for the match. I heard that our couch would be late due to his work and we should be led by his assistant.  Hahaha…I don’t wan to describe how’s this assistant was and how he led us that night..but I tell you..I was only allowed to step into the court in the last quater by my couch and not his assistant.

We lost in shame that night. Few of my team-mates almost sat on the rest chair whole night.They only be able to fight for their team in pityful few short minutes. I think they were damn dissapointed because they couldn’t own the real FAILTURE. I didn’t lose,and my team not deserved the failture and this disgrace. I was sitting aside and watched my team-mates bullied by our opponents,this really a bad experience. We had 11 players, neither of us was a basketball new bird. We were not 6 players team. COURAGE didn’t deserve this destiny!!!

Now..I am a free player again or maybe I should rest and recover my injuries and change to other field of sport.

Goodbye ETL, goodbye COURAGE…

Looking at friends beside me..many have finished their study,now have started to work. Finally is time for me to further my study. Many ppl asked me that why i didnt want to continue my study last time..My friends,maybe is an easy way for you,but for me,I need to consider lot of matters like financial,family background,enviorment and etc.. You are a lucky one who have family support!

In Penang,mostly are educated people.If you come to JB before,then you will find that there are alot low-educated ppl here. They start to work since they are young,myabe it is caused by their family background and lack of parents’ teaching or concern.Probably thier parents are low educated as well. Degree of syallabus  here in goverment school are lower than Penang,but private school here has a good standard.But what I have seen,they are still living well..just they wont have a guarantee career,if they dont be hard working,in a short term,their income will far way below compare to any certificate holder..Anyway,if they work hard or run their own business,they will have lot of opportunities to achieve their dream life.

If you are low educated,maybe some people in Penang will despise you. This is the way i have learned..that’s why I tell myself never be the one anymore! In JB,people only care about how capable you are but not the position you are in..It means if you can earn lot of money,who cares what job you are working! Maybe a Manager also doesn’t have this much of income..

Do you all agree that?

If we are all high educated,who will do those lousy jobs? Who makes you have a better living enviorment? Do you think those are the creation of high educated people? Every person in this society plays his own role.. Nobody have the right to criticize those unfortune one..who dont want to have higher education,can sit in office use brain and not with labor force to earn money?  Never despise a person due to his occupation..

Perhaps,you have known that,some of you not really use those "knowledges" after you graduate. But after I read those study materials from my buddy, I really understand that how noble is a person can be able to finish his master or professor study..I totolly cant understand all of those study materials..haha! Damn headache now..

Thank you for all my friends who always support me to continue my study.I will try my best to finish it. Now,some of you have far overtake me..trust me,I shall catch up soon,dont wait for me.

Is a brand new challege for me and also a brand new challege for you. You have entered social university now..but please beware and stay cautious,it has alot of traps spread in this social university..I pray for you,hope you will pass all the TEST and graduate in social university.. (earn lot of money and upgrate your standard of living)

Hey..Penang people..never look down anyone who is lower educated than you. Maybe you are only a little frog in the well that think you are the best!!! (to those who are not,you are always the best,the Proud of Penang)

p/s: I am a Penang guy as well.

Finally,I have created my own blog! Just sent a comment to Adrian,now formless to write my blog,all the stupid Junyi fault.

Haha..Have been staying in Johor almost 6 years,time past really fast. From a teenager become a yougster already. Looking at my friends around,some have graduated from college or university,I still not yet further my study,really sad. Haha,lucily Andy recommends me to take ABE course,I can soon further my study as a private student. Otherwise really feel tiny and useless when meet those ‘high educated’ people!!!

Now still waiting opportunity to breakthrough my current achievement. Feel not enough to survive in this complicated world. But wonder what can be done to improve my standard of living?! Income really not enough to cover my expenses. Everybody is thinking how to get more money. Side income from various kind of part time jobs like direct sales really doesn’t attract me.Furthermore,I really dont have time to run it. Therefore,I wish i can further my study and complete it asap,so as I can scheme my new future planning..I have wasted alot of times!

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